I agreed after much manipulation to abrogate my own rights.
That is wrong. I'm not taking care of God's Creation when I do that.
I'm walking away and into AA. I also found a good therapist.
I am so deeply grateful to
leareth26 and all the friends who have put up with my anxiety and codependency and blindness. I hope everyone understands that I withdrew to try to keep the crazy off of them.
Special thanks to
hypanebliss for the ugly truth all those years ago. You probably don't care but I held it against you and I'm sorry.
If you're reading this, I love you.